Touched but Never Embraced

Having talked about love, maybe I should share my brushes with love, since I have never what is considered a proper relationship before. I admit though I have been infaturated with many a pretty a girl before, there are many girls of which I thought I had a serious chance of developing a true relationship with.

There were girls which I have been interested in primary school, but I was probably too pre-occupied with my fascination with computer games to spend anytime in the courtship of a girl. However one particular which stood out in my memory. There was this girl from prefect camp whom I met when I was in Primary 5. She didn't seem particularly attractive then, but as she was in the same group I was in we got to interact quite a lot. Now that I think of it, she would most likely have turned out to be quite gorgeous and yet at the same time quite cute. The main thing though, was that we got on extremely well in what limited time that I have shared with her. She was bubbly, lively, honest and friendly from what I still remember. Alas, this relationship never developed beyond an aquaintance, since she was from a different school and I never bothered to get her home number. Blast! If only handphones had been more widespread then...

It was in the same camp though in which I noticed another girl who lives in Malaysia but studies in Singapore, just like me. That she was an overacheiver, being an outstanding student as well as her school's Head Prefect, also apppealed to me. Furthermore, she seemed to fit my image of my future girlfriend. As it turned out though, she became the object of my desire in secondary school, since she was in the same school bus and studies in my sister school, so I was able to look upon her everyday. That my schoolmate knew her from primary school and was willing to introduce her to me, further convinced me that the cupids were just lining us up in their sights.

However, if you have been in a single sex school before, you may be aware of how alien the opposite gender may appear. This was my case, and I was shy to a fault towards girls; I never picked up the courage to talk to her until upper secondary. My classmate who knew her was able to help me pass her a rose during Valentine's day and get me her number. I did call her, but the less said about the conversation the better. It was that embarassing.

However all was not lost, however, since she did not appear to reject me outright. As both of us were most likely caught up with our preparations for our "O"-level exams, nothing more came out of it until the end of the exams, in which I celebrated by going out with the rest of the guys to Marina Bay. Incredibly, she was doing the same too, but I was so overwhelmed with shyness that I pretend that I did not see her. It was only at the end when she was leaving did she actually took her own initiative to wave at me. Oh how I blushed! Boy, how the boys teased me no end for the rest of the night.

It was the closest we got though. When I went to Junior College and the whole new world of a mixed school opened up, she took a back sit to this new experiance. That I learned she had been interested if only I wasn't so shy didn't matter. A relationship has passed me by yet again. Romance was within my grasp and yet it slipped through my fingers.

Better luck for me in the future then... After all, I always believe hope springs eternal!

P.S: There were other experiences with girls I wish to share in the future, but for now I pray that through my experiences those lonely hearts out there may see how NOT to get a girlfriend.

Quote of the day

" Think about a woman. Doesn't know you're thinking about her. Doesn't care you're thinking about her. Makes you think about her even more."

-Martin Sage and Sybil Adelman, Northern Exposure, The Bumpy Road to Love, 1991