Temptations and Regrets

I'll be the first to admit that I have the best looking of bodies, for I walk the thin line between being overweight and just being acceptable. Being the desperado that I am, I obviously hope for a better looking body by losing some weight. Going through Basic Military Training (BMT) has given been a big boost towards that direction, thanks in no small part to some of the more sadistic instructors in Jaguar company. Though I hated them then, I bare no ill will towards them now for it is only through them that I had taken a major step towards a more healthy looking body. Alas, some of their efforts have gone to waste, since I begin indulging myself towards the end. Trust me, when you have gone through field camp, you can't help but gain a much better appreciation for the simple pleasure of decent food.

Now that I am in my unit as a Temporary Support Staff, more commonly known as Sai Kang Warrior (literally Shit Work warrior) in the army, my weight has begin creeping up the scales again. Having an incredibly Garang Medical Officer in charge of me has helped stem the flow, with his sick notions of physical training, but I am increasingly worried that I am too easily tempted by junk food. I guess everyone has succumbed before to the temptation of grabing a bite that snowballs all the way until you become bloated and then regret your actions. This is especially true in my case, since I will tell myself that I am just compensating myself for the tough training I am going through.

Having just ran ten kilometres today, I was feeling quite good about myself. I only had a reasonably light dinner, which should mean that I had a good day in my quest to shed the flabs. Then the chocolates appear before me in my fridge. Oh yes the chocolates. I thought I will have only one small packet of M & M's but ended consuming a whole lot of them. Now most of efforts earlier today have been for nought...

I guess we all have this instance where we know we are going to do something we are going to regret later but nevertheless carry on doing it anyway, unable to stop the inertia within us. It is so simple to succumb to temptation but so difficult to rectify your actions, leaving only nothing but regret in the end. Just like me today.

Quote of the day

"Make it a rule of life never to regret and never to look back. Regret is an appalling waste of energy; you can't build on it; it's only for wallowing in."

- Katherine Mansfield